Yea all i get to watch is porn. I haven’t for about a month now, though, and i feel way better.

I don’t see it as hating myself I see it as being realistic with myself. I see all my friends get any girl they like so easily, and even if they don’t like the girl they still get a chance to be with her as a “backup” because she still likes them.

Even when I tried my hardest and was at my peak it wasn’t even a fraction of what they were at their worst. When they didn’t shave and didn’t work out and looked homeless they still got more than me when i was at my A game.

Now they are all living with their girlfriends or wives, and i’m alone. Theres nothing else I can do but be realistic with myself and come to terms with the fact i’m a leftover.