Thanks pal. I have issues trusting in people. Seems I have lived most of my life like Daniel in lions den, and I really don't trust others at all after being raped(by a woman believe it or not in a very strange way didn't see that comin'(beware of hoodrats and those stuck on color issues), beaten, robbed, neglected, and other than the first, the cycle continues. (Friends, family, co workers responsible) to where I feel at home with strangers, but I rub them wrong cuz I'm 'overly friendly' spouse supports me if I stop with the bible and if I get a higher PAYING job than her....worst case scenario for me. The beatings continue when I let my opinion fly, have voiced my opinion "on the mountain tops" in front of CCTV etc, adds to my insecurity of others out to kill those with TRUTH. It's been 5 years of this and even with positive progress, I still end up going to bed alone, money is never good enough (40k compared to her 52k), the area I live is filled with smart people, but guess too smart for me. The best thing I am good at is lecturing and teaching youth from experience, apply apply apply interview interview interview but it seems today you have to either get fucked, suck a dick, or LIE, to land a job underneath this miserable swamp. I have been general manager several times and lead foreman contractor with high profile gigs, all of which my personality sways peeps. Big wigs tell me "great job" "thanks for keeping in contact" co workers or competition often brings me hell because of my swag and tolerance? Not sure anymore ya'll. If any of you are demonic shills exploiting others, u r horrible people. You aren't interested in the benefit of all humanity. Stuck on aspartame while I seek B17 for fun. Ideal situation is ignorance being erased from earth.