Hey this isn't really a reply to your comment, but i think you know what you're talking about. I think i may have depression. I've had mental issues with anxiety when i was young and got psychological help with that, the psychologist didn't cure me I just grew out of it during puberty. But now i feel like everything is just dull and like nothing is existing, i feel like everyday is just me doing a useless ritual of what i need to do to self sustain. The situation in life I'm in is really taking me down, and I don't really have any friends that I really can connect and open up to. I really do feel sad and just dull all day and I'm pretty certain i may be depressed. I'm just scared to ask for medical help. Its like every that knows me would probably say I'm someone who seems really happy, but its just a mask. When ever I Slightly open up to people I'm instantly just bombarded with all this 'Oh we all feel sad sometimes, but you have to try to see the world in a happy way.' But when i try all this "Just get over it" stuff it just slams me down even harder. I feel like i have a genuine problem and I'm scared that not even professionals could cure me.