It was a good idea to go so far as to try and reach out for help here, most clinically depressed are justifiably hopeless and sadly are never able do this. This is a good direction. Before I explain why I think you have a terrible depression currently in your life and how to fix it based on the chart here, let me say this... Identifying the issue is the first step and it can be difficult to get to this step. At least you know you’re depressed now and what it is. I’ve experienced this full blown type, as many others have, and it really does get better. Years you’ve had it so not better when I say that. Moreover, the next steps to getting out of a relatively long depression are difficult to reach as well. It’s one of the hardest things to do, and it’s a very strange and seemingly unnatural emotion. It gets immensely confusing, but it will get better. Astrology-wise, aspects are always moving in your chart so one day you are bound to eventually experience a buzz of happiness and a new-found wanting to improve life with much determination and a eureka moment of a sort. At least that’s what Astrology says. This sudden buzz of a new-found happiness may last for a long period of time, potentially as long as this depression you’re having or even longer. Anyway, Astrology also says that your aspects and such moving in your chart tell you want will happen naturally, not what will happen if you cause a change of trajectory. Astrology does kind of say when trajectory changes in life are possible, but they’re basically always possible. The stars and aspects of astrology supposedly tell you where you will go to in life if you just live the human condition the way that your unique personality naturally would. Without learning lessons and doing certain things to help yourself get stronger, your trajectory can go downward, towards unhappiness. However, your trajectory can go up if you learn lessons and get stronger. Sometimes the aspects apparently do tell us the point in time we will inevitably make these changes in direction; however, a trajectory change planned to go either way beforehand can let you get through hard times much easier. Not everything is meant to happen a certain and exact way in life is what I have told myself my whole life. If something always happens “for a reason” in someone else’s eyes and they think everything happens “for a reason” always, I’m okay with that, but I always preferred to tell myself that I am not I limited. Imagination has been key for me here. Saying events all happen because of a “big plan” annoys me, I just personally wanna live and do whatever. Astrology agrees with me. You can change what happens in your life, but things will happen in the way Astrology indicates they will happen if you do not make such changes.

Anyway, back to my actual direct response to you. In your chart, Jupiter is in your 8th house, which is maybe why your current phase of crippling depression is the way it is. I also have Jupiter in my 8th house, so I can relate and help you immensely hereeee. I don’t necessarily 100% believe in astrology yet but I do know that it can hep a vast amount if you try sometimes.

If you have Jupiter in the 8th house of your chart, which is both a curse and a blessing. The 8th house is the house of metaphorical “death and rebirth”. It changes your life immensely, either making you very, very happy or just the opposite. Jupiter in 8th house is like a curse to those who don’t know how to unlock its power, but a blessing to those who somehow manage to unlock it. Also, since your sun sign is Scorpio, the 8th house affects you a lot here because death and rebirth is a big part of being a Scorpio. Scorpios are very prone to surrounding energies and they’re referred to as the “perceptional geniuses” of the zodiac because of how great they are at reading emotions. It’s unusual how they live so analytically to plan what they think is right to say to certain people constantly, just to get everyone on their side. Scorpios want power, exhilaration and atmosphere. They need imagination. Plus, they’re known as the most unfortunate of the zodiac so their constant misgivings and tragedies do not help with their struggle of keeping themselves together. The emotions and mind-sets and lifestyles they read from people are easy to be mimicked an