We are going to go with adoption I was overthinking it too much to remember adopting from different countries was a thing I wasn't thinking enough about how it's a full 9 months it seemed shorter in the moment but It would definitely feel like a never ending hell for the 9months plus any complications I probably couldn't even carry the child anyway me and my girlfriend have been on hormones for years and thinking about the 9months I couldn't last that long I've had times when I haven't been able to get my shots and it feels like the worst so 9months of that is not a option

Her mom is set on bio grandchildren so there was pressure on having to be the one to carry the child so it felt like I had no other option