In my case, I was as young as three years old when I started to display dysphoria. I stole my brothers clothes and wore them around the house often. I cried when called anything but a tomboy. I begged my mother for a boy's haircut, boy clothes, etc. I started going to the park to meet my friends as my "boy cousin." I even had a social worker tell my family that they believed me to have GID.

I did end up transitioning "socially" in my early teens. My mother and I figured out a masculine version of my name together, and I had a girlfriend that really encouraged me to become her boyfriend since I had originally came out as non-binary. I grew older, became more educated, and eventually started watching Kalvin Garrah and Blaire White.

My girlfriend did too. Then she started to support TERF ideologies, and told me that I was a young woman trying to escape the trauma of being a woman. I have no trauma correlating to being a woman though. Still, she read the SCUM Manifesto to me over and over again until I had it memorized. I ended up detransitioning and kept my support of trans people to myself out of fear.

Years later, we are separated and I am diagnosed with BPD. I still go by my "trans" name since I am most comfort with it. There is a correlation between being transgender and having BPD, and it is even considered to be a subset. I know I personally experience an undefined identity and struggle with gender dysphoria still to this day. I just live with trauma surrounding me being transgender due to my experience with a TERF ex so I choose not to identify.