You pain and how you cope makes a lot of sense. I will pray for your healing, for me my brother , I do deal with some stress brought on by retention’s from the public sector, most is what they do to my pocketbook. I knew taking the Hill would come with cost , I excepted that from the beginning, but that no part of the government has done there job as listed for the witness, but not all the corruption has been exposed yet . I still have work to do , but the challenge 8 years ago is almost complete, to take on all government corruption has gone really well . I my be the Investigation part of the money, but it has a trail that leads many places. God be with you God Speed