Trauma recovery is a slow and long process. Depending on the severity of trauma and the person's vulnerability, the progress varies. Some people got stuck with PTSD symptoms for a long period of time. You can never forget the trauma, instead, it becomes part of who you are.

Speaking from personal experience, it's a lonely and scary place to be in. Limit the trigger if you cannot cope with it at all.

I'm not a professional so please don't take this as medical advice, I'm just sharing my own experience. Depending on the nature of trauma, if this was inflicted intentionally by another human being, forgiveness can be another complicated feeling to deal with. I personally felt that forcing myself to forgive when I don't feel it, is hindering my own recovery. Sometimes I just feel angry and it's ok to just feel the anger in a safe manner. Then be REAL sad. Mourn the loss. Find a safe space, cry as much as possible, even it's ugly af, just cry without any inhibition. I have had many repetitive events like this and one day I found myself feeling less triggered.

I'm not fully ok yet, but I feel everything is a lot more in control now. I learned some skills from Dialectical Behavioral Therapy, which helps me personally.