Thank you for your response.
What’s the other thing you jump out of? And the cliffs... I’ve experienced some irreversible, fundamental changes (mainly just the way I do/experience things, and how I don’t REALLY care about anything now)... but nothing that feels like a cliff... care to elaborate? Is this where it gets mystical? Overall, aside from my period of delusions, my experience has felt extremely practical.
And similarly, I’ve also experienced the loss of countless desires. But I’d say I’ve lost all the false ones, and they’ve been replaced with fewer, authentic ones. The main desire I have now is to figure this out, then have fun.
It feels like I’m meant to become more involved with life, and that has been my motivation for meditation since the start. But I’ve always wondered about the big questions, and messing around with experience is interesting.
Overall, do you feel like the ride has fulfilled the desires of “who you truly are” (whatever that is)? Or does it feel like EnlightenmentTM is taking over and you have to wave humanity goodbye?
Also, a silly question came to mind:
If your only desire is to eradicate all desires, and so you succeed in eradicating the desire to eradicate desires, would that result in no desires or many desires?