I treated this guy awful back in the day. I was to controlling and always wanted to justify my actions. Im not saying I was totally wrong, but when he finally broke up with me it hit my heart deeper than anything I've ever experienced.

He taught me how to enjoy life. How to respect people in their moments of weakness.

He taught me that I cant be so naive. I've had drug addicts come to my house and beg me for money. After listening to their stories id open up my wallet. My ex's mom had a boyfriend at the time who would steal her money when he was at his low, and I would listen and feel sorry for him, even though he would continuously do this.

He had such a great heart, he taught me how to have one to. To listen to people. To be aware of your surroundings; when someone else is feeling awlward you give them your attention.

He taught me to take a step back and breathe. To listen to my gut but to realize what im going up against.

He taught me that fighting, although optional, can be neccessary at times.

He taught me that a patient individual does exist.

His values in life I will always hold dear. I havent spoke to him in a year and a half and even though I wont go to his fb account, I wish he knew what he did to me, cause it changed me.

Im no longer the coward that gives out free cash, im more cautious. But im also the most accepting person you will ever meet. I cant say I dont judge quickly, but im quick to rebuke my original statement.

Im with a guy now that doesnt question how I do things. He loved me for how I am, I still complain, and im still controlling to some point. But im so less likely to be these things, but regardless im still not good enough for him.

That break up was rough. But id tell myself that I'd get through it, and that's it. I wouldn't tell myself id find someone else, cause Im always out to better myself and I dont know how much my "improved" self would change if I did. I had to go through the heart ache and drunken nights to understand. God, i miss him.