I still currently wouldn't consider myself hot although others do. I used to be a twig weighing maybe 97 pounds and my hair was always pulled back. I wore glasses and big clothes and consistently was made fun of for being smart. I was also always teased about being mixed race which really still affects me today. The only time anyone ever really spoke to me that I remember was for help with their homework. I remember at one point a guy was dared to ask me out and gave me the number to a suicide hotline. Life was tough during high school and I didn't have many friends or people I trusted. I was very quiet. Once college came around I started to change. I gained about 15 pounds and started straightening my hair. I even wore contacts. With all of these outward changes My outgoing personality began to take shape. I noticed that more and more people would talk to me and also that girls really disliked me. I didn't have many friends who were girls throughout my childhood and always hung out with guys because guys were less judgmental than girls. In college I migrated back to that pattern and girls didn't like me and I couldn't understand why. As time goes on I am still learning how to be myself. It has been easier on me since I grew into my looks and I have a few close friends but it's still always awkward getting stopped and told my eyes are beautiful. The funniest thing about being considered hot or attractive now to me is that my fiancé went to the same high school as me and was a football player. I knew of him but he didn't even look at me twice back then. It's funny how things change. http://imgur.com/7Kr55ia http://imgur.com/1IEX21x http://imgur.com/OHb0xsJ http://imgur.com/GvYuW4D