Being born into circumstances that you literally cannot control. Its all a collage of incidents that had showed me how cruel man, even a child can be. From my mom being a crackhead and going to prison for murder by the time I was 7. My brothers going in to adoption. Dad is a broken man who lost his soul along time ago and just drags his body through each waking day. Brother, cousins, friends on drugs. Friends dying young cause of trauma they couldn't bare to face so they took to drugs. Watching the rest of my more functional family ignore the pain the rest of the family was in all while maintaining their selfishness. Went to Christmas one year my dad was in jail, I already hated Christmas for being a let down while watching TV and kids at school adore the day, then I show up to my aunts. they scrambled and forgot I was even coming so they scrapped up like 50$ and a jacket from Walmart which was honestly amazing and what I needed in that moment. Watched my cousin open up a PSP and other shit all while complaining it wasn't what he wanted. he made a grown man cry, I look over and seen my cousins boyfriend (25) crying because he wanted to make this kid happy and just got shit on for it. I told him not to worry because someday he will enjoy the gift, maybe not now.
that shit fucked me up seeing that man cry.. it put in to perspective how we treat the people around us.