I mean, the meltdown isn't really out of anger. Maybe meltdown isn't the right word, but it was a big moment for me; it was a play that should have won me my first local tournament (which would have been cool, I've never won a game tournament of any kind before) and I misplayed and it cost me. So it's still all good fun, but I don't think that should remove reaction and emotion from it entirely. I reacted honestly and I'm sharing honestly.
I guess you could say it's a little defensive but I'm not making excuses for it or anything. Really it was just a thing I wanted to share here because games are about experiences and this was mine tonight. The video that will follow later isn't the full story, this was. And it wasn't meant as advertising. Watch the video or don't, it doesn't really matter to me.