It’s my only pursuit because I can’t rlly do anything else atm. I’m coughing up what appears to be blood, wheezing, and feeling dizzy and lightheaded all the time. It’s very overt for me and I can’t just accept it as my new life. Not like it’s some minor issues that just limits me by x percent. What I mean by it becoming ones identity is when I see ppl almost revel in it ig. Like applying it to completely unrelated areas.

I know how hellish it is when time just flies by, I’m just shy of 2 years since sx began, but I just can’t see a long term future with overt sx like these. If I can’t pass a moca test designed for ppl with dementia and I’m coughing up blood and feel So out of it that I can’t walk in a straight line, it’s kind of time for physician assisted suicide if there’s no hope for fixing my condition lol.

Part of the biggest issue for me is having 0 idea what I even have. I can’t even say for certain I ever had covid..

U mentioned mcas and pots. The former has a short survival rate, no? The latter has been linked with either physical changes to the heart that should be able to be observed via echo or cmri, or autoantibodies that can be tested for.

If I rlly have pasc and I’m free of any viral reservoirs, I’d be more interested in flying to Russia or Mexico and going for the nuclear option (hsct)