True affection has never been the issue it just never goes further. Love and life are she will always have an excuse for why she can't do something and I will live my life.. it's sad really.. the other day we were at our community pool and she said I really want us to be close again and I said I would love that but I need to see the effort on your part cause a relationship is a two way street. She was like I show you I was like ok great I am willing to try if you will. So that week I get home from work and she has to go to the store with her mom I'm like fine. She comes home at 10pm I get home at five. I go to bed at 11pm. She gets on the phone with her sister til then. Next day something similar happens. This happens all week until the Thursday we go to pool she says what's wrong you seem distant I tell her you day your going to work on us but all week you been shopping with your mom til 10 or what ever something always comes up and you know I go to bed at 11. She was you can't be mad about that my mom needed me. Ok what ever I'm here now I'm like cool and we chit chat about stupid shit then dinner and that's it because I'm closed off I don't care to share and the moment I start opening up. Her mentality handicapped friend calls and she drops what's she's doing to talk to him and calm him down about the mental hospital hes in. That's an emergency and she going to yell at the doctor and blah blah blah..

So she leaves I take care of the kids and everything like I always do and she shows up at midnight with her mother as they tried do what ever.. everything is always more important than us or me. I can go on I'm not happy she knows it she's not happy and I know it.