I remember my chest tightening and tears welling just mentioning seeing my dad let alone apologizing to him. I know my sponsor meant well she just doing what her sponsor did for her. But I apologized to a man that terrorized myself and my family after not speaking to him for 6 years… all because aa told me to do it and basically implied it’s either do this or die a hopeless pos. ( btw the apology was saying sorry for how “I probably scared him” by my using drugs/alcohol)

I recall all the friends I lost.. so young I wonder if abstinence wasn’t so rigidly enforced would they be around today? An absolutely beautiful girl my age hung herself, and so so soo many overdose deaths. A young guy killed himself by train. Another stabbed. And a looot of opiate overdose.

One of my besties from the program got married and a year later expecting a baby boy, she ended up delivering a still birth which set her downward spiral of drinking to oblivion. She also threaten suicide while drunk with a gun thank god she didn’t.. still she expected me to chastise her and I just cannot do it like that way anymore.