Why do I feel like it's all an illusion?

Here’s my thing- I don’t trust anyone I meet at AA. Unlike some people in AA, I have no desire to see these people outside of meetings (unless it’s going to a restaurant as a group directly after the meeting). I don’t want to be friends with any of them. Ultimately they’re untrustworthy people with a lot of fucking problems. I’ve been offered jobs multiple times by people in AA only to be burned/ghosted by them. Some of the people who seemed most enthusiastic about AA end up relapsing and then immediately go back to being a preach AA know-it-all when they return. Though I’ve never burned anyone or been a total fake, I wouldn’t trust me either- being another guy in AA. I’d rather have normal friends who drink then hang out with AA people and their cultish “isn’t this so much better when you’re not drinking” weirdness.

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