Fuck your friends, who gives a shit about the perceptions your worried about. Dude it’s fine to experiment, if you have an open minded temperament then that shits gonna happen where you need to try something before you know for certain. Im pretty sure I’m straight, but fuck I don’t know, I saw this post because I’ve never been more depressed in my life and just ran to Reddit. Never thought someone else in the world would have the same thoughts and feelings as me but seeing this post makes me feel less alone. Part of accepting life is accepting and inviting suffering. Im sorry if I haven’t been able to provide help here, I’m fucked up myself, I hope you find what your looking for and can find something to keep you moving forward. Sometimes it’s as simple as picturing a life you know you’d be happy with and doing what you have to to work towards that reality. I wish you well man, genuinely, keep going.