I dont know man, i used to be... dark. To the very core. So much hate, against every single person i saw, before i even met them, and more than ever if they spoke to me... i put the fear of god into more people than i care to admit, people i love, people who love me.

I cant speak for other people, but it never really left me, i know theres a part of me still wanting it, i just learned to deal with it better, therapy helped me find a ways find ways to cope in a healthy way.

I took up fighting for a while, but i realized that i just didnt want to hurt anyone anymore. And that took me a long time to come to terms with, sounds kinda messed up, but the hate was such a big part of who i was that leaving it behind took some real effort.

You really have to find the source of your hate, not the little things that add up, find the thing in your life, or your past that makes you feel so much hate. Id really rather not talk about what mine was. But you cant just expect to keep releasing the hate, you have to deal with your problems.

Or dont, go beat the everliving shit out of something. Try to avoid jail. Goto a batting range, a shooting range, set fire to some shit. Dont hurt anybody, eventually you will regret every awful thing you did, every thought you had.