Thank you. I get that, but I guess I still dont understand how , say I hate to sneeze. When I sneeze it's so unnatural to me to not say "damn I sneezed today..."

It's like you can't say anything.... but some people get their shit by pure force and still affirm old stuff, and someone like me who's focus has been on what I want , but you can't explain anything, say anything or you get chided ...

It's all very confusing to me. I should've recieved my desire a year ago, my focus is on what I want... but only the opposite occurs.

I just have a hard time not explaining reality. If it isn't real then why does taking about it cause such problems?

Hope that translated.