Hello! I hope this will help. I'm your age, and a chick in college, and I don't think you are creepy or immoral at all. Some of your kinks even seem kinda fun;)

That being said, here's my story and I hope it helps you. If not with advice, then with perhaps comfort from someone with similar experiences. I had really bad OCD growing up. I still do, sometimes. I only got into sex because of all this not so awesome rape shit- I was 18, OCD as all hell, and it sucked. I thought I was going to hell if I did anything sexual- no shit. My thoughts are similar to yours- I'm an evil person, I'm a slut, everyone will hate me. But then... bro, it happened and NOTHING came and struck me down. Life went on, and it SUCKED, but it wasn't because I was OCD anymore. It was because I was some fucked up sex slave for some military tool. On a scale of shitty things, my safety quickly overtook priority over OCD in my mind. I beat OCD- because I had to, and I think you can too. I know sex and masturbation dont always walk the same line, but what I'm trying to tell you, or help you with, is that just keep trying, take it slow, and progress will happen. When I was at my worst, I would counteract that stupid voice in my head. "If you dont this, XXX would die" OCD me would think. I would give it right back. "If you don't do this, XXX will die and so will YYY." It gave me some small power over the voice in my head. Sometimes things would happen that OCD me and normal me both wouldnt want- but I still survived and nothing ever ca me of OCD's threats. I don't think you should report anything as dirty to any webite online. You should keep masturbating to what you want to- you've already been there, you're still here with us. It's okay. And if you go back again to the same stuff online, it will still be okay. The only change is that it will be better in your head everyone you defy that OCD side and make that trek again. You can do this. Also- with the masturbating thing, try doing something that's not only really distracting, but really soothing. That way the OCD doesn't flair and you can sneak your mind into a guilt free orgasm. Best wishes.