well , this is my worst mistake and something that happened 8 years ago but was the biggest mistake in my life and i really wish i could go back in time and save my mom. She killed herself and at the time i didnt know what happened to her , i was a stupid teenager that didnt pay too much attention and i really didnt know how mental illness work , i was suppose to take care of her and like an idiot i was angry because i couldnt go outside with my friends ,i was in my room angry and my mom cane to my room and asked me feeling guilty she said if she was a good mother.... and i told her she was the worst mother and i really want her to die ... then i went outside to play with my friends and when i went back to my house... i saw a officer in the front door talking to my big sister and she was crying...they told me that my mom killed herself... i was so selfish that day and i really wish i could go back to that day and hug her , tell her she was the best mom in the world and that i would take care of her...