ugh. screw him. my ex would always lust after thicker girls on IG and would look up OF accounts of women that he knew irl. made me feel like shit. i’m thin. i’ve got hip dips. even if I tried, i will never fill out and look like those girls. but yeah they lie and tell us we look good and we’re good enough to keep us complacent while they get to do whatever they want under the sun. i’m better because he’s out of my life now. i’m seriously damaged though. don’t know how I will trust a man or want to be with one intimately ever again. or at least for a very long time. I’m very scared. I wish I could stop obsessing over my external appearance.