Outwardly there seemed nothing wrong, attractive young girl who was probably from a good family in the area but in her own hell. I guess I will never know, i just had one objective, to get her out of harms way and be a weight on top of her so she couldn't move. When the train was coming (didn't know it had been slowed down) I freaked out my legs might be to close to the track and get sliced off as I had to kind of tackle her when she tried to break free after sitting on her. When I moved my legs to check she tried to struggle free so was worried I could lose them. Thankfully it was under control by then and when I got up I was far enough away from the track so my fear was unfounded. There was just this weird eerie moment as the boom gates were dinging, she was saying she wanted to die and get out from under me and a cop (didn't know it was a cop) telling me I could get up while I'm telling him to help me pin her down. I guess it was a good kind of confusion as it was under control. That quote helps give some context, so thanks.