I can't stop thinking about wanting to try heroin [No Regrets]

I remember when I had my wisdom teeth removed and also ended up getting prescribed with an oxycodone derivative. The pain was terrible, but I stopped taking the medication after only one day because I hated the way the drug made me feel while I was on it. In my opinion, physicians need to stop prescribing drugs in this category on such a frequent basis. Believe it or not, but cases like yours are becoming a real problem; heroin addiction is no longer endemic to urban areas and has spread to suburban neighborhoods and rural communities. Like yourself, many of these "new" heroin addicts got their start from abusing prescription painkillers before "graduating" to harder drugs. Thankfully, unlike you, I found the experience of being on painkillers to be extremely unpleasant and quit after just one usage - even though I didn't exceed the required dosage, I found myself in an unsettling, dissociated stupor and felt nauseated to the point of vomiting.

You seem to have a very romantic vision of what being a heroin addict is like, but nothing could be further from the truth. Heroin is one of the most addictive substances on the planet - ironically, it was originally created by Bayer as a "non-addictive" form of morphine in the late 19th century. This quote from Layne Staley (former frontman of Alice in Chains - died as a result of drug abuse) really does sum up what it is like to be addicted to heroin:

"This f—ing drug use is like the insulin a diabetic needs to survive,” he said. “I’m not using drugs to get high like many people think. I know I made a big mistake when I started using this sh–. It’s a very difficult thing to explain. My liver is not functioning and I’m throwing up all the time and sh—ing my pants. The pain is more than you can handle. It’s the worst pain in the world. Dope sick hurts the entire body."

Here's my advice: get yourself into rehab for your painkiller addiction and stop ruminating about heroin. You are already locked in one form of drug abuse - why would you want to end up ensnaring yourself in yet another?

/r/confession Thread