I don't have many qualities that are attractive for long-term relationships.

You don't have money. And you generally lacked initiative. But, you're capable of being smart and funny. And who doesn't want to be entertained for whatever time they're together?

I have a date with a 21 year old on friday that I'm basically dreading, because she has her shit together more than I do.

Eh. Maybe she has a mommy complex. Some people really don't care if a dude has his stuff together or not. And you know that.

You've said it yourself that I would make a much better friend than boyfriend.

Yeah. For me. I don't know that it would be the same for everyone. It's really only because you lose sight of that I'm a person with different needs from you. And you are strangulation level possessive and I need football fields of space.

I still wish you would have drank strawberitas in your underwear with me. I always wanted to take you on my silly day drinking adventures with Pat and the other dudes but you never wanted to.

I did, mister bad memory man. Just not in excess. And we didn't go anywhere at the end because I was too burned out on being annoyed at you for not doing all the things. And also other stuff that doesn't belong on the subreddit because it's private business.

I think our sweetspot was after femur break but, before tib surgery when we went to Norwescon. A bit again in June. It might help you to recall we couldn't even go out, without me having to push you everywhere, until last June. And there wasn't a car up there until July. And by the end of July we had other problems.

Whole thing was a hard uphill grind. It wore on me. I like stress and I enjoy pressure but, dare I say in the kind generated by your life choices, I may have met my match. Or at least a level of darkness that undoes me. Stuff.

I'm going to cry if I keep typing about it. So, let's leave it that, despite all the things, you're still one of my favorite people and I'm still going to save every bit of washington in my server even if I don't want to look at it again.

If we're ever both single. And you could ever be nice to me and responsible about your own stuff, I'd still like to try again someday, maybe.