Does anyone else have this irrational fear of answering calls, no matter who's calling?

I do, and "unknown numbers" give me a mini-panic attack. I've been dealing with this for 9 years and it makes me feel so stupid so thank you for posting this. I dated the love of my life for 8 years. We were together since high school. We had no plans on marriage but we had plans to be together. I talked to her on the phone and she was at her Grandma's house. Everything seemed fine and great when we talked. We were going to go out on a date later in the evening so she was going to take a bath and get ready. I decide to take a little nap in the meantime. I get a call about 40 minutes later from a number I didn't recognize. I answer the call and it is her Grandma's new phone number. She starts the phone with "xxxx is dead!" and starts wailing. All I can do is answer "WHAT????" and start screaming and crying. My girlfriend was an epileptic and had a seizure while taking a bath (fuck you to whoever made the epileptic bath tub joke). I was house-sitting at my parents and had nobody around for the next 5 days. The only thing I can remember from the next 4 months is her funeral. I lost everything when she passed. I quit going to my job, I quit going to college, I started drinking (not a lot but I pretty much never drink). I shouldn't even be typing this I am crying now.

I'm definitely better and bounced back to normal to the best of my ability but every day I wonder how life would have turned out if that didn't happen. Since then, I have had a few more calls to let me know about death's of friend's and family and I get really nervous every time my phone rings - it doesn't matter if it's work, family, or a friend.

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