Do not fear child. Your existence is recognized.

This story you tell about your living situation eerily mirrors mine with my father . So even if it feel like you're alone at this..You're not.

When i was young. My father made sure that we were to be made aware of our financial situation. Which was the opposite of what he said. He denied us the fortune that he amassed but insted he generously spent it all on his siblings. Who were very much capable of holding their own. And they were the first to ditch him when it came for them to stand by him. I made my piece with the nature of my father. I think in his mind since we his children are an extention of himself he presumes our consent of his unprincipled generosity.

It will pass you will eventually have your way with your parents regardless of their will.