hey, I completely understand that. I do that with characters that comfort me as well, so you’re basically using a coping mechanism to help you deal with loneliness, and that is absolutely fine. If you struggle with making real friends, i would try to make online friends (but be careful!) that are the same age as you and that share the same interests, it may help you feel less lonely to at least have a friend to talk and you wont be completely alone. i understand exactly how you feel though and I will always be here if you need to talk about anything and there are probably so many other people who feel the same way that you can talk to as well. You still have a ways to go in life and many people that you can meet and many chances to make you enjoy life for what it is at last and be happy and experience new things. stay safe dude <3