There is so many enlightened ego and I am still one of them although I'm trying to see through it.
You can't see through it, so don't try. Seeing through it can only result in an illusion that you're seeing through it. When it's gone, you will know, trust me. It will be unlike anything you ever experienced and it won't be how you imagined it to be, but you will know.
Did you have a living GuRu or has your experiencing come through mainly OSHO.
No, of course I don't haha. There are and there cannot be any gurus here. That's why all the gurus say they're not gurus or masters and they don't have anything to teach. There are no teachers. It's all you.
I never had a guru, and I think it was for the better. I didn't even know what I was doing, for the most part. I read books but I haven't read Osho until it happened.
In the beginning you can learn a lot from gurus but at the advanced stages the only role of a Guru is an inspirational one. Yes, from the practical perspective gurus can give advice on technique, i.e. how to meditate, but that's pretty much it. The role of a Guru is to give you faith and support when the going gets tough, which is, if you think about it, the same thing. So that you don't stop. That's the only role. No one can teach you how to live - only you can. That's what enlightenment is ultimately all about. Living in freedom. Dismantling your own cage.
Will you speak about your journey to enlightenment or what ever state you seem to be in ? is that only just unnecessary ego bullshit ? (Sincere questions)
No, I do believe that some advice can be helpful here and there. Some things work and some things don't. I don't want to speak too much here about the journey itself - I will only say that like everyone else, I was going blind. The biggest advice I can give you is to do whatever the fuck you want. Enlightenment is the ultimate freedom - so start to be free. Fear is what's holding people from being true to themselves. Do what feels true to you. Don't suppress anything. Go through your psychological fears. It's your life. It's yours alone. You won't have another one. Live it the way you want to live it. It's all you so there's really nothing to be afraid of. The fear will be real, but don't be afraid of it. Allow yourself whatever you were denying yourself before. If something feels false to you, drop it. If you know secretly inside that you want to quit your job but afraid to do it, do it. You won't die. If you know secretly inside that what you really want to do is throw it all away and meditate for a year, do it. Don't be afraid to throw it all away, burn your life. Nothing true will perish. Even if you don't reach the ultimate destination, it will only bring you closer to your true self. Don't be afraid of suffering. Cry. Shake. Scream. Let it all in. It's all good. Psychedelics are also a wonderful tool, as is meditation, and all other things that they call healing practices. It's difficult but it's doable.