This is coming from an ex porn addict whos lost all tendencies of addiction and been freed from it for months. So much so that NNN is just another November.Imagine this...

You turn on your laptop to start your work day and during it when you feel tired and take a look at YouTube and accidentally see the casual soft porn, you get turned on. You seek the sauce out of habit but when you reach the video, something about the screaming lady and the heaving man disgusts you. You can't put your finger on it, you realize it's not the fault of those actors that you feel so they were just doing their job to get their daily bread. You brush those unnecessary feelings aside and come back to your reality.

There is a void in your mind cuz the usual dopamine dose doesn't hit... And neither is your heart filled by regret. But that vacuum can't remain empty so it filled by something else... something amazing. The void in your mind is filled with thoughts of realization that you've done it. You no longer are a slave to some thing which clung to you like 100s of tonnes of deadweight, thoughts of the future and current, as well as appreciation for yourself.

Your heart is thus filled with a feeling of content and happiness, which induces a deep sense of love. Love for yourself as you get strength and stability to tackle the rest of your daily duties. You no longer hate yourself. When you look at yourself in the mirror, this time to wash your face and not to wash semen off your fingers, you don't see a defeated man but someone who's proud of himself and also in love. You smile knowing this war is over, and you're on to fight the next.