One of my big challenges is when it comes to sex. I like sex and feel energized by it. Since I am so tired of being manipulated by “marriageable” guys who expect me to dedicate my entire lives to them, I don’t have sex with them. I have a rotating stable of about 4 men who are nice, party guys who are from an entirely different culture and social class than me. We have fun and have sex and it doesn’t include future faking though they are affectionate. They are all super hot and know each other and of each other. I do have anxiety about this set up in that it feels like it’s not manageable in the long term (even though it’s been a couple years like this) and my ideal would really to have one partner with whom I can share my life and struggles and feel supported emotionally. In the short term though I just feel frustrated by the scenario of the world and so I just want to fuck these dudes and have adventures and fun. I want to have kids so it doesn’t seem constructive but staying home alone and being sad also doesn’t.