Formerly suicidal people of Reddit, how did things change? [serious]

(now 21)

I went through a rough existential crisis very early in my life, asking big questions that no adult nor friend could answere for me. It peaked when I couldn't even manage to separate these feelings from friends and school and things turned for the worse in my structural life.

I got injured skiing and couldn't walk properly anymore - enhanced the depression horribly due to me reliefing alot of emotions throughout sports in my teens. (still does)

Isolated myself from other friend, family, anything that could help and felt into a state of thinking about suicide daily, talking about it now it feels pseudo dramatic, but it never was, I was serious and very close to death

How things changed?

I focused on the good stuff again. Even if my life is a mess, who am I not enjoying this miracle?! I still seek for an ultimate answere explaining life and it's importance in this cluster of space, but I'm fine with the mystery and it's beauty. Shared on a planet with likewise people. Information and little things that constelate our day make me happy now. Love towards live and the chance to experience consciousness and laughter, freedom, attraction etc. was my ultimate answere.

I often hope nowadays that people could feel the same as me, manifest life and become sensible (I for sure am aware that I am not alone and I am not superior to anything).

People of this thread, OP, anyone out there - stay adventurous, and love what you have.

cheers

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