I feel the same way about him. I've been much reassured here and I'm sure some people feel that he was in control of what he was doing and aren't afraid of it, but the more I learn about what he was doing and who he was, the more uneasy I feel.

I worry that he wasn't really in control. It frightened me that I was alone in the room, no one else was there but whatever intelligence was responsible for the tableau. Crowley was a spiritually attuned man but he was just a man, and I get the strong sense that he was trucking with things that eat sentience for breakfast, and only let practitioners believe they're in control. I don't know anything about this, I'm sure I'm wrong, but that's how it felt.

'Evil' is a very vague word and I don't like it, it seems slanderous and lazy, so what was in that room in that dream I will say it was contemptuous, indolent, seeking amusement in the same way a very wealthy man will seek amusement through depravity. Not stupid or blind like an animal, but developed, sophisticated and interested in its own appetite.