I feel the same way, but I want to try to make as much female friends as possible bc I wanna do fun girly stuff with them like eat out and take pictures (19, still in college) But the problem is most of the groups I feel like have given up on me because I always say no (I have to study). Also the leader of the big group kinda talked sa group without me na medyo “weird” daw yung aesthetic and vibes and ugali ko…. (Not to brag but I have my own style and for me maganda yun and also I have a somewhat cool social media presence like sa IG or tiktok lol) and that’s why I blocked a lot of my classmates because I don’t want them to bring it up, instead acads nalang ung usapan.

And yung ibang girl friends na I want to form more deep relationships, ok naman kami pero I feel like hindi nila priority ang friendship kasi may mga boyfriends sila. Yung sa mga boy na friends mababait naman sila saken but ayoko maging pick me or maging too close sakanila kasi nagmumukhang for pick me girl for me ngl (idk)

So im all alone in college but I know by myself that I’m smart and pretty and a good weirdo. Idk sometimes I think that maybe I’m not a right fit for the class and eventually i may find a group that will fit me but it’s fine now as long as I have classmates I can ask acad related questions to.

I think it’s ok for us to be alone but sometimes I too also get confused on whether I should blend in more or jusg vibrate my own energy. The latter is more peaceful for me. But the former allows you to grow as a person by getting out of your comfort zone. Maybe we can try to reach out or initiate naman sa other people with pure intentions and if ever na di na reciprocate, cool move on hanap ulit ng bago.