No past traumatic events. Have regularly been told that I am negative or dark just for observing things that most people have zero interest in, but it's nice when you find others that are willing to discuss things that matter.

My simplified 2 decade journey to get to this point basically went like this:

Conspiracies -> Religious studies -> Non Canonical and ancient texts (Enoch, Atrahasis, Gilgamesh, Enuma Elish, Lamentations of Ur, Emerald Tablets, Book of the Dead, etc.) -> Sitchin and the Anunnaki -> Gnosticism

The starting point for people seems to be a feeling that something is wrong with the nature of our reality, and then the willingness to burn the calories to seek the truth.