As someone who is currently in his wife’s possible position you’re absolutely right and it’s not guilt it’s reality.

Money won’t matter. They need you OP.

Plus to be a little blunt her salary won’t matter when she will probably need serious therapy for years afterwards. (Let’s just say it’s hard sometimes to hold a job with PTSD)

I would give anything to have my hubby back and I tried everything from understanding to forced mental health help and it didn’t work. I understand it is more miserable to solely live for someone else but please do talk about thinking about others because they don’t need anything but your physical presence and I guarantee they’d do anything to understand you before attend a yearly memorial.

I’m sorry this is harsh. The world gets really hopeless when you’re a suicide loss survivor. My main point is even a stranger like me is desperate to find a way for you to see you’re loved and there is hope. Thanks for being honest, that’s really brave.