Why can’t you tell them exactly this?
I understand these things are difficult to share. If you trust these people, being honest may be the ticket to them actually understanding.
Anecdotally, I’ve been telling my friends about my mind holes for a while now. Just letting it rip, because I know if I hold it in it’s just going to build up into something worse. Sometimes it’s embarrassing, sometimes I feel crazy and stupid and ridiculous sharing my thoughts.
The responses have been so great in so many way.
People need people, pal. Vulnerability is scary as shit, I know, but please believe that being alone with your struggles can be even scarier.