Do you guys think Colleen is an avoidant person? As an avoidant person myself, my guess would be that birth was so incomprehensibly traumatic for her (i was traumatized just watching the short c-section clip & seeing what moms go through), that her brain came up with any excuse possible to limit her time there because being there was so traumatizing and emotionally difficult for her. As i imagine it is for probably every nicu mama. Your nervous system is so overloaded that if you're an avoidant type, your instinct is to avoid further pain at all costs.

And narcs have a hard time admitting when they're being selfish and will try to blame everything and everyone to avoid feeling like a bad person. Outward blame is a lot easier than saying "I was so traumatized that I couldn't bare to be in the NICU with my babies for longer than a couple hours at a time. I was in so much pain that I felt incapable of putting it aside even though I knew I needed to".