Oh no, don't get me wrong, I get what you're saying. The thing is, logically, I do realize I didn't miss out at all.

I just get those faint feelings (very occasionally) when I watch this media I speak of. I'm well aware that these scenes are nothing but fantasies that don't match the actualities, my mind knows that.

But still, some switch in the back of my head goes "shit man, I wish I experienced that." It's not something that bothers me, but rather something that fascinates me. Social conditioning and romanticized media are powerful enough to make a part of my mind go against all logic and wish I experienced something that would not have benefitted my life in any way. Crazy stuff man. It's baffling. I was very curious as to whether any other dudes get that switch in their head.