I grew up in a strict Christian household, and am still Christian. I grew up in purity culture where we were social distancing long before the pandemic. I was also mostly homeschooled as well so there wasn’t exactly any options. If you know anything about or have experienced purity culture you know how damaging it is. I still think there good from it especially with how culture has plummeted into sexual, moral, and religious depravity. I tend to attract broken people, and the girls that I’d meet would have used me as an emotional boyfriend. I haven’t met a girl yet capable of committing to a relationship but much less just attraction for me. I don’t know if I saw it here or somewhere else but it was a post saying something like “ there’s someone out there who sees you as their dream person” almost eye rolled myself into another dimension. Now do I think out of the what, 8 odd billion people there’s a perfect girl for me, yeh probably. Do I think it’s possible i already met her, yes. If that’s not the case its more than possible I will never meet her.
Observing the climate of people in my own spheres, as well as what’s portrayed in social media, tv, and the like I have come to some conclusions.
Humanity is imploding in on its self and the end of times are near. As well, 99 percent of woman I have met and in a very broad sense fall into the spectrum of being liberal, woke, sjw, feminist, and vegan. Which I do not find attractive or compatible with my traditional values and standards. I have a lot of love to give and my hearts cries out to find its love, but as the years pass I have been losing my desire to be in a relationship. The more I settle and grow into manhood the more I enjoy my freedom and autonomy and since most of my remaining friends are all married with kids my solitude. I have given myself until I am 30 to find a potential partner and if not then I will remain a bachelor.
Pragmatically the odds of finding a love , getting married, having kids and being married long term seem frankly, shit. 50 percent if not more of marriages end in divorce with 80 percent of them being initiated by women. As well 90 percent of women really only find 10 percent of men attractive. Whereas most men find most women attractive. I have little desire to play a game where the odds are stacked against me. If in the next 4 years I happened to physically trip over a girl and she is the perfect girl for me then awesome, and if not I am going to continue to enjoy my life and hobbies and job until I am able to shed this mortal coil