Dear J I always knew that when you said that you were moving that we'd grow closer apart. I let that become a reality and never made an effort to stay in contact. If I'm being honest with myself I've been lonely since we stopped hanging out. You were the only person that I could be honest with and not worry about being a burden to. I looked up to you man and always blamed fate for separating me from my best friend. I heard that your on your schools debate team, if I'm being honest with myself I joined again hoping to see you at a competition. I heard that you never actually moved and decided to stay in town. The past week has been such a mess. I'm sorry for letting our friendship die. You were a brother to me. I'm going to try and shoot you a message tomorrow. I know we probably won't be as close, but you were like a brother to me and I hate myself for alienating my closest friend.

Dear K, I love you and I've fucked up. Every time we ever hung out I felt like I was fucking superman. I know that it was always with a group and strictly as friends, but that didn't matter to me. I kept telling myself one step at a time and maybe we could be something. I was so excited when school started because I was sure we would share at least one class, but when schedules were given we were separated. At first I was alright with it, but after a string of bad luck I gave in to fate. I simply told myself that if it was meant to be fate would do it. It's been months since we've last spoken. I'm trying to change for the better. It may not be soon that I speak to you and I sorry. I need to work on fixing myself so maybe one day I can be someone that isn't filled with hate

Dear other k I haven't seen you in a few weeks. Last time you disappeared someone made the joke that maybe you died and that scared me. When you came back I was thanking God that you were alright, but at th same time scared. I can't remember what you called it but you said you want to some sort of depression Clinic. I felt terrible, I couldn't begin to imagine what you were going through. I know that I can only see you at church, but you're a friend I really care about. I don't know where you are or if you are alright, but I wish you the best and will be here when you come back.