Damn, the age escalated. So recently I've been on a few coke binges & going out every night. No sleep & I work 12+ hours a day so I'd just stay high all day to stay awake. Have come really close to having an accident or getting fired. Just a week ago I saw the company I was keeping is not very trustworthy & cash see they're trying to use me. Compiled all the info together & I quit doing it all. Now my life is ultra boring & I want to die. You need to pull yourself from this hole you're in or you will end up dead. I'm sure your mind is nowhere near what it was before you started all this & you're a completely different person now. But you gotta adapt. Figure your shit out man.