to be honest...I am having a rough time in my 20s doing a lot of drugs, I love AB and I love make-up and I love beauty stuff, but it's not a kind of miracle for me, I feel the same way about it as brushing my teeth, it is a good habit, but it definitely hasn't improved my life massively in some way :/ I don't know. it has always been a priority for me to care for my skin because I had severe acne when I was younger and I was obsessive about it (it really affected my self-esteem and I don't know if I will ever truly not care about people looking at my face even though it's relatively clear now), I love my AB routine and I love experimenting but to be honest I've spent a ton of money on things that I feel are probably unnecessary and kind of shoot myself in the foot all the time by spending money I don't have on AB stuff. maybe if I were more stable somehow and better emotionally and financially I could do AB in a healthy way. for now, it seems like just another thing I use to self-destruct with which is kind of bizarre. Sometimes I just feel so depressed and trapped that it feels so good to buy luxury things and I can't stop, I tell myself its okay because it's 'self-care' but really I manage to make even the most benign things harmful to me.

my skin is probably more clear than it has been in over a decade. and I'm in love with CorSx and my chemical exfoliants and everything I do for my skin. but I'm still as depressed as ever, I think that's because I'm mentally ill and in a terrible situation, I don't know. it's just really hard to relate to others when you kind of feel like a mental outcast in so many ways (note: I'm in therapy and I have been for a long time)

I love this sub. I love seeing happy people on this sub, I love seeing transformed people who are radiant and confident. I don't know if I will ever be one of those people, even with all the snails in the world.

(sorry for the depressing comment :( )