I’m so sorry :(

It’s true it might get worse but somehow I think it will be ok???? I’m in the US too... there are people to help. One of my first big hospitalizations right after school when I was totally uninsured was like 500,000 which I talked down to 300,000 and then I didn’t make any money. I was working two jobs. in a food prep factory and as someone’s assistant. I honestly couldn’t afford anything so I paid less than $20 a month and eventually they just forgave the debt. Even now more than a decade later I’m not stable. I lost a job last year and started freelancing. There’s ways to get help. I ended up still not being able to afford my medication but the representatives from drug companies tried their hardest to find me a biologic that I could afford out of pocket. I got it down to like 30% of the original cost. It’s not going to be perfect and it will be hard but it is possible. I’m so sorry. Having gone through scary times like this I wish I could just untangle it all for you. I really hope I can one day be strong enough to be able to help others. It breaks my heart a little to hear that you are experiencing the same fears I did a decade ago. We have got to make this better.