Throwaway time.
I was lucky/gifted with paranormal stuff. I was agnostic my teenage years and asked for more experiences to become more certain, and i got it. Lets keep it short, it has involved truth dreaming, seeing/meeting dead people in dreams and IRL. Knowing future events, being warned, and strong visions, talking to guides, etc.
To answer this guy thread from my perspective. (From the informations i have gathered through out the years of these experiences, and from dreams and visions of God and Jesus)
God is love. The love is so intense and bright, that i (even though i didn't feel that i lived especially wrong) feel to my knees and apologised.
Think of it like a grandma that loves you so much and have to much hope for you. You loose touch and after 20 years you get reunited again. She still loves you like you were a kid. No matter what you become or who you are.. you will feel ashamed infront of her. You will feel like you let her down somehow.
In my visions of God. What he wanted from me was to love other people and think positive. Its really strange. He didnt care for all the times i went to church etc. He wanted my mind to be more loving.
My consciousness was fully exposed. Every thought i ever had, he know. Therefor words were not needed. No explanations, no pleading.. the only thing i could do was to say that i am sorry.. sorry for the cynical thoughts i had, sorry for the mean spirited things i did, sorry for spreading bad energy..
Imagine little old me. Starring at the face on the this vivid moving, breathing, universe.. that somehow, looks at me like i mean the world to them. You don't feel deserved of it.
I got absolutely no sense of judgment at all. Would you loving grandma visit you in prison and condemn you? Of course not. She will see with the same love as when you where a kid and her heart will ache for the things you did. It will pain her and you will hate yourself for that.
His wife is not in hell. Depending on what kind of a "inner" life she had. She will be either closer to God or further away. To be further away is not turning your back on God, its turning it away from light, love, and warmth. If she did turn cold full of hate.. God will not ask why. In this sense. None of us..None! Can match the love God has for us. Its more than any of us deserve. The only thing we can do.. is to be humble, say we sorry and try to be better persons.
The "Oh shit, he is real" moment will come for everyone. When your consciousness gets laid out in the big database that is God.. no words or punishment are needed. If you are an Atheist and loving human.. its much better in the eyes of God than to be a Christian that tries to "fool" and "manipulate" the love. No matter what. Be humble.