No idea if the tape exists or if its online, but the guy lives thousands of miles away.

The tape and her outfit play over in my mind, even though sexually she is happy to do anything with me.

In some ways knowing too much has helped - the fiancé is viewed as the worst, most selfish lover of them all, but she thought she could teach him to be better (she couldn’t).

Her RJ is far milder and to be honest, I think she has gotten over it. She actually met my 10 year ex and handled it really well. Her issues with my number just come out as occasional teasing and joking now.

I can remember all 20 or mine quite specifically to be honest! I imagine she will be the same as the number was lower and all were people she’d been seeing a while.