I’m doing it because that is where a lot of self dislike comes from for me.

Like I dislike my body, it’s genetically male and I wish it was female. This is the source of dysphoria for me.

But also a source of pain for me is the fact I couldn’t talk about it and was afraid. Like it was bad to be trans not because of the dysphoria, which is the problem, but because you are a freak who chooses to be, who continuously chooses to be a selfish abomination who no one would want to be with.

So like taking pride in being trans, as in not accepting those ideas that it is wrong to want to be female, just unfortunate that I do because of the dysphoria.

I’m not disagreeing with you, I’m just trying to engage your post with my feelings. I’m sorry if I’m step sideing or missing your point. I’m just trying to clarify how I feel when I read your post.