Well the point is to look in your own mind without judgement and to find what it is that you truly want. You say no one cares about you, regardless of that being true, just to say and think that means that on some level you look down on yourself. Why are you below? What is above?

There are ways to take that difference, those roles of greater and lesser, and attach them to something simple, visible, and undeniable like race so that you can play out those insecurities and even overcome them by turning them sexual. Do you feel hopeless? With this, you can be just that as if you were meant to be, and give into the power of someone who does value you for who and what you really are.