Ya I’m one of those cursed lonely woman. I’m still a virgin because I wanted to wait for an actual loving relationship before engaging in it. Well, I’m 28 now, and several assaults later, I think I’ve given up on love and wish I could just get laid so I wouldn’t feel lonely, but my body literally prevents me from being able to do that, I freeze up. I’m basically trapped in hell now I feel like. Never had friends that last either, I didn’t grow up with any sisters or healthy female role models so I can’t do female friends the way “normal” girls seem to be able to because I’ve always felt like an outcast. And now I’m so nihilistic from all my trauma that I keep sort of self sabotaging and preventing future relationships from blossoming because I’m resentful that I’m still having to start over making friends and building a support system at the ripe age of 28. I’m too exhausted to get out of this loneliness because I tried and failed too many times now. It makes me feel so ashamed that as a woman I’m suffering the same plight as some lonely horny man.